My Story

as an E.D. Recovery and Devotionals, I can tell you the exact date that my eating disorder took over my life. Not many people can do that because of the uniqueness of each and every person’s start of their story. November 26, 2018. I was at school and I choked on a sip of water that I took. Fear took over my life at that moment. Grasping to control anything that I could at that time in my life, I knew that I could control whether or not I had to feel physical sensations that made me feel unsafe.

Before that day, I had experienced disordered eating most of my life even though no one had really diagnosed me. Throwing up when I was 9 made me fearful of anything that could possibly make me sick. It also gave me the irrational fear of almost any physical sensation. It was always hard for me to distinguish hunger and fullness cues from my stomach pain because I was sick. Prepared to do anything to keep myself from getting sick, I had limited my food intake for most of my life.